begitukah aku?

orang yang tak kenal aku slalu ingat dan fikir serta cop
"adibah adalah seorang yang takde perasaan"
*takde perasaan di sini bermaksud aku bukan jenis yang akan sedih, sensitif dan nangeh*
sebab apa?
sebab muke aku muke kejam kowt
muahahaaa

siyessss
pernah ade sekali tu aku kata aku sedih
tau tak orang tu bole kate ape?
"eh, diba reti sedih ke?"

waaaaaaa
aku pun ade perasaan doeee
aku pun merasai ape yang korang rase
dari rase hepi, bahagie, suke
hingge ke sedih, ase nak nangeh, down giler
termasuk la kecik aty, marah, bengang, ase nak bunuh org
*errr...hardcore nye, mwahaha*

aku adalah adibah
manusia biase je kowt
aku buat muke kejam tu pun ada sebab
sebab aku ni tak kuat sgt semangatnye
aku ni fragile orgnye
jadi
dengan mengkejamkan muke aku
secare tak langsung aku akan ter-psiko senirik
wawawawa
*walhal hati kat daam tetap rase mende yg same*

kadang2 aku rase sgt susa nak nangeh
dan itu adela sangat menjiwekan sebenarnye
~~sebab perasaan aku tak lepas~~
ase sangat tensen
ase sangat menci
ase sangat la nak menumbuk anak org

giler kejam an aku?
hahahaha...
sebab tu ade org kate aku ni TAK BERHATI PEWOT..
aku ni TIKAM DARI BELAKANG....
aku ni PENTINGKAN DIRI SNIRIKKK....
ape lagi?
tah....
tu jela kowt yg aku pasan
sebab aku malasssssss dah nak layannnnnnnnn
dulikkksssss arrrrrrrr

cakap la ape ko nak cakappppp
sebarkan la mende ko nak sebarkannnnnn
burukkan la pe bende ko nak burukkannnnnn
hakikatnye mende tu takkan berubahhhhhhhhh
yg saket atinye ko, bukan akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
sebab ape?
......
tatau?
sebab ko je yg amek kesah sal mende2 budusss gtu
aku tak amek port punnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
daaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Jam kat laptop menunjukkan pukul 2.08 AM

wah, a.m you

apesal aku tak tdo lagi?

saje ngengadew tido lambat

dengan harapan aku ade motivasi na buat keje and stadi

mampukah aku?

haruszz wei

final da dekat

sampai bile aku na melahar?

bosan idup dengan membace nota last minute

tensen ase bile org da abes bace byk kali, aku separuh je

teruk sangat ke aku?

wahhh

sejak bile kesedaran aku datang ni weh? pelik3...

eh3, alalala incik kesedaran

janganla larikk

aku guraw jee

meh cni, meh cni

haaa, duduk diam2 dalam aty aku ea

emm

mungkin aku harus berubah

sebab takde sape leh bubah hidup aku

takde sape leh ubah diri aku

dalam hal ni, tak de sape yang bole tolong aku

bukanla aku nak menyombong diri

tapi aku haruzz sedar akan hakikat itu

orang hanya mampu tunjuk jalan kat aku

tapi aku jugak yang pilih nak jalan yang mana

aku tau sape diri aku

jadi seharusnye aku sedar camne care aku

camne aku harus adapt dengan care sendiri

camne aku boleh psiko diri sendiri

hakikatnye kat cni

aku da meroyan sesuku hati

selebihnye aku da takde hati

krane ape?

banyak sangat

leceh nak list kan

dah la

mungkin haruz stat buat esaimen

dan stadi

takyah tdo

pas subuh bru tdo

kalau larat la.

mungkin saya dah hilang mood

mungkin saya dah hilang semangat

perasaan yang berkobar-kobar tadi

terus hilang ditelan masa

apa yang nak dibuat, tak menjadi

apa yang dirancang, hilang sepi

sampailah aku terduduk di sini

meratap dengan hati kecil

yang sakitnya bagai ditusuk duri

cuaca panas

ditambah dengan hati yang panas

memang jadi hati kering la kan

mood lari

semangat lari

senyuman pun lari

suara da lame lari

senyap.sunyi.sepi.

saya nak bgtau

saya tak bersalah!

kenapa marah saya?

saya tak ada kait pun

marah la pada org yang betol

tah la awak

biar la

saya malas nak pikir lagi

mood saya pun da tak nak balik

semangat da berkubur kene langgar lori

saya takde tempat nak mengadu

sume rasa hati sy, saya simpan sendiri...

nak cite kat sape?

sape2 yg saya rase nak cite..

tapi tak sume la saya cite...

saya masih simpan beban saya sendiri..

malas nak susakn org laen...

biar la saya simpan sendiri

saket sendiri

sedih sendiri

bukan tak biasa hadapi sume bende sendiri

slalu je...

I wish I could cry

Sideways

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away ...

Yes..these feelings won't go away...

I wish I could cry

But I can't

I don't know why

And becoz of dat

Those feelings don't go away...

I wish I could cry

To make myself feel better

To let the crazy things gone for a while

But I couldn't

And those feelings don't go away...

I wish I could cry

So I'll have the spirit

To cheer up tomorrow

To make it better than today

But I couldn't

And those feelings don't go away...

I wish I could cry

To throw the anger away

To let the sadness go away

To put the hatred away

But I couldn't

And those feelings don't go away...

I wish I could cry

And those feelings don't go away...

That's Why You Go Away I Know

Baby won't you tell me why?

There is sadness in your eyes

I don't want to say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

But there's something left in my head

You the one who set it up

Now you're the who make it stop

I'm the one who feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget

Every little thing you said

But there's something left in my head

Chorus:

I won't forget the way your kissing

The feeling's so strong

We're lasting for so long

I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know...

You will never satisfied

No matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

But there's something left in my head

Chorus:

I won't forget the way your kissing

The feeling's so strong we're lasting for so long

But I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

Bridge:

Sitting here all alone is the middle of nowhere

But don't know which way to go

There ain't so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There ain't so much for me

anymore...

Chorus:

I won't forget the way your kissing

It feeling so strong

We're lasting for so long

I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

That's why you go away I know...

Besh kan lagu ni...

slalu dengar masa kecik2 dulu..

Dulu nak ikut nyanyi tp tak reti..

Sekarang aku da bole nyanyi sambil men gitar skali..

hehehe..

Hua hua hua....

Salam...

Gosh...! why do I feel so lazy today?! after this at 4 o'clock I have to meet my friends from my Music Apreciation Club, to help them in zapin. hohoho... someone like a steel have to teach others to dancing...gagaga... =D Hope I still remember those steps... I'd left zapin for years man... besides, I'm quite sleepy now. My be is waving to me rite now...wa wa wa... u know what? yesterday, the whole day I have an orientation. A course and a Double Helix Club orientation. Thank God I got the best team mate ever!!! and even the best facilitator ever!! actually we won most of the competiton. but, to be even to all of them, each group will have at least one present. as for me, my team got 2 award man!!! 1 for the winner of Vascular Bundle contest, and one for Malam Kebudayaan contest. Thank God we had done it beautifully yet funny!! =D everyone laugh of us. for the vascular bundle contest, we have to sip the seawater with a straw and put it into a bottle. we got the most volume. and of course our faceys happy very much! huhuhu... well, I think I got to stop here. by 4 o'clock I have to go to IA block. so, see you then!!!