Something I don't know

Sayang.

Semua orang ada perasaan tu, kan?
Perasaan tu indah, penuh makne, trase sanggup buat ape-ape demi sayang.
Biasalah tu.
Semua makhluk berhak menyayangi.
Semua makhluk berhak disayangi.
Siapa yang nak disayangi, terpulang pada hati kite yang mencari.

Aku juga menyayangi.
Tapi, selalunye terhenti di tengah jalan.
Tapi, kenapa?
Aku sayang pada orang yang salahkah?

Orang kata, ini ujian untuk aku.
Tuhan takkan uji kite di luar kemampuan kite.
Yes, I do know this is my test.
But,
Will I ever stand it for so long?
Will I?

Aku pun manusia biasa.
Iman aku tak sekuat mana.
From day to day, the test is getting bigger.
Sampai satu mase, aku rasa macam nak give up.
Just nak biar sumenye berlaku macam tu je.

I felt so sad.
I can’t even smile from my heart.
Does everyone was subjected to make me frust?
Or is this a karma for what I have done before?
It made me cry, cry and more cries.


Somehow, I had a slap as my supper.
And I’m glad for having it.
A slap that changed my mind
When my 1 liter tears did nothing but adding pain to me.

I realized, that it could be my destiny
But God is always, always fair.
We never know HIS plans.
Then, why shud I be sad?
HE always give HIS promises, rite?
Either it is late or fast
Depends on which suits us the best.

I feel happy.
I knew HE love me so much.
That’s why HE was testing me
To make me remember HIM all the time.

And somehow
I try my luck again.
And guess what?
The same thing resulted again.

I cried deeply in my heart.

Am I really destined to face these tests?

Yes, I am.

Now Diba, wipe ur tears.
Don’t be sad.
It’s ur 20th birthday today.
Happy Birthday Diba.